"It became very clear to me sitting out there today that every decision I've made in my entire life has been wrong. My life is the complete opposite of everything I want it to be. Every instinct I have, in every aspect of life, be it something to wear, something to eat - it's all been wrong." ~George Costanza
Maybe that's a slight exaggeration - after all I did decide to have children and that was perfect :)
But if ED is my voice of doubt, confusion and self-destruction, then like George Costanza I should do the exact opposite of everything it says.
I need to practise listening to ED - and then actively do the opposite!
So since my mothercraft nurse offered me a follow-up visit in 6 months instead of waiting the official 18 months (just so she could check-in with me) and since I said 'no' because that was what ED told me to do - today I rang up and made the appt. Opposite, get it??
Nothing terrible happened either :) In fact the worst thing that could happen is I go along in 6 months for a nice little chat that I didn't really need. On the flip side, if in 6 months I have slipped back into my old habits I will most likely be incapable of making the appt when I really need it.
And the best thing that can happen is that I now have another person I can add to my growing list of recovery support people. Only good can come from that!