Monday, 9 January 2012

Lazy Lexapro

pretty pills from here

As it turns out, a lot of my drive to talk/blog/write has been driven by my anxiety.

And I know this because it's disappeared a lot lately. An increase in my daily dose has had a marked effect on my 'need' to blog. And also my 'want' to blog.

I can't decided whether I can't be bothered. I'm too tired. I don't care. Or I just don't have as much to say.

Whatever the reason, the upshot is I have found it very difficult to even open my own blog - and nigh on impossible to read anyone else's. Which is very strange for me.

I'm hoping it is just a settling in period, and I'll adjust to the increase - because I really love to write. But not just to hear my own voice. And if I were to write at the moment that's what it would feel like. I want to write because I am fired up about something. Because there is something burning inside me that I have to share. I don't want to talk just to fill the silence.

So I guess this is a little explanation of where I have been lately. I'm still here, muddling along. With my good days and bad days and everything in between. I'm just not quite myself.

Not that I want to stop taking the meds. I'll take lazy over terrified and starving any day of the week...


Mum on the Run said...

Yep, lazy wins hands down.
It might be just what you need right now.
I hope you settle into a comfortable groove soon.
:-) x

HikerRD said...

Thanks for letting us know! Certainly a good reason for slowing down a bit--a good sign, I'd say.

Anonymous said...

i've missed you. glad to hear from you. i'm recovering too - these blogs make me know i'm not alone :)

stay beautiful <3